wham bang smash plop!

Biked for more than 40k on the road today.

Started at gardens then rode down yck road the longest road (seemingly) til we hit lentor and then yishun. From yishun, we rode past mrt tracks and THEN IT STARTED TO POUR so we sought shelther for awhile before continuing on and eventually finding our way to the seletar reservoir dam that kw brought me last time. Twas nice! On the whim, we decided to take a little detour from our original planned route and to head to sunset grill area since we were nearby. So off we went cycling on puddle filled roads with dirty truck water with trucks and cars zooming past us (scary road that was) Felt like I was in malaysia kampung. Then went through winding roads and eventually wound up at sunset grill! I surprised myself by remembering the way there hehe after getting lost with kw the last time. Was very nice and empty of cars hurray so we practically had the whole road to ourselves. The hugeass colonial houses were set against a lovely backdrop of bloo sky with wispy clouds i wished i had my holga with me.

Then it was lunchtime! So we headed off to jalan kayu for some prata. Remind me never again to order mushroom cheese prata there please, its exorbitant! A hefty six buckeroos!! After lunch the sun was out at full blast and we were suffering from post lunch inertia but still, we biked back to yck road, then upper thomson road, through macritchie and onto lornie road where I was trudging along the gradual inclined road huffing and puffing. Realised that we were on the wrong side of the road so we carried the bikes across the freaking overhead bridge (a workout for the arm muskles toooo) And then Sime Road, which was wonderfully empty and also downhill hurrayyyy so we zipped all the way down and ended up near law sch. Rode past rtc and then squeezed past bushes and jayran across a road with high speed zooming cars leading on to the expressway oh goodness. Made it across alive and started our way up mt pleasant. Logic tells us that for every uphill theres a downhill so after trudging up the hill down we went down all the wayyyyyy woop. My only gripe was that there were too many cars on that road. Couldnt zip down as freely as I wanted.

Nevertheless, still safe and sound with no injuries whatsoever yet, we headed past fareastflora which brought back pb memories. I also got whacked in the face by this girl carrying a horde of sunflowers (my only injury of the day haha). Rode past ri and back to rj for a drink. Then biked through bishan onto braddell road, and headed for gardens and then up back to my house. Home sweet home!

Safe and sound. Though I nearly lost my balance umpteen times today while squeezing through narrow busstops and pavements, I am still alive! Also conquered numerous elements of nature - sun, rain, mud. Now my ass hurts and my knee feels funny from bending and unbending. And I have emerged darker (redder for the second time this wk), wetter, grubbier and also happier (:

Its things like these that make me feel alive.

If you were falling,
What would you do!
Then I would catch you,
I'll catch you too
You need a light
I am your light!
I'd find a match,
Yay!

Yay thanks to v and cher for remembering me in spirit at the one concert I really really wanted to go for but couldnt. I watched two of your fb vids 1000 times hokay! Which led me to youtube the official vid of The Way I am, its really really good. GO WATCH.

I've been stalking fb for ingrid michaelson's concert vids as well as ocf photos it makes me smile silly! Life is good nowadays, in a very peaceful, happy, self sufficient way. Too good. When you feel too happy for such an extended period of time, somehow I just get the very paranoid feeling that somethings gonna come my way and destroy all these and disrupt my peace and take away my joyyy. Thats whats supposed to happen after a peak right.. A trough comes along?

Hahah I am being a paranoid android worry wart worm laa

I apparently look like a 17 year old girl! say the p6 kids! hurray me!

Laser tag with the kids, and bowling and clay pigeoning and watching them zorb cos i refused to squeeze into the zorb ball with kids less than half my size. Resulted in a very burnt and red me, which was really unexpected considering the sun has been refusing to shine the past few days. A few revelations:

# kids these days cant do without aircon
# kids these days are ultra good at whining (and getting their way)
# kids SHOULD NOT BE OVER FED AT A TENDER YOUNG AGE
# pri sch girls are extremely allergic to guys
# they also find the sun highly repulsive (why oh whyyy) and are highly cliquish,

I am damn shagged from the day's worth of work. But i feel youthful, like somehow the kids have rubbed off me. (:

Theres no way of saying it better - Children wreck a house, but make a home.

Working at the florist makes me go aww half the time im reading those messages on cards accompanying the bouquets. It makes me think the world is full of loveeeee (and also boliao rich people - I saw this one 90 bucks bouquet going out to someone with a message saying: Study hard baby. Omg, a bouquet for studying for exams??)

okay back to the point, my favourite part of work - reading those messages. It says a lot about my innate kpo-ness HAHA but it really is very heartwarming to see overseas spouses/boyfriends sending their other halves bouquets on special days. And the flowers are really very pretty (:

So anyway, I am still rather intrigued by all these as a nooby florist. I dont know if will last though, we'll see, especially after working on vday (the month florists all over singapore get their 'bonuses' from working 24/7) But for now, I'd still like to believe in flowers, and love and all that soapy stuff. :D

Heh, in any case, im pretty happy with my life now - doing two things ive always wanted to -- kids and flowers. So yay, and although I've been rather lonely because all the lack of female companionship -SNIFFSNIFF cos exams are around the corner, I guess thats a good way to save money huh. Speaking of which, I totalled my total expenditure for the first month I've been back, and OHEMGEE IT WAS APPALLING. shiwei needs to turn into a pauper from this moment on. ):

This wk was rather lovely. Other than my baking stint, a few tuition sessions with the kids at auntfaith's which is normally rather enjoyable. Except I hate it when the kids dont respond to my questions!!! (now I know how redmundlaw must have felt about 305. What exasperation.)Also netballed and also squashed with cel amongst other things, which left my shoulder and back screaming in protest for the following two days. But then I discovered the wonders of the OSIM back massager the mother bought. Though of course, some things just cant be replaced by machines. I think my auntie's massages are still imbaaaaa to the max - she used to massage me post contact rugby training as part of restoration purposes. Mmm.

Hopped around to a numerous places for interviews too and part of the reason why I am pleased is because I pretty much have got the wks right till the end of the year planned. I think! In a few wks, I should start working at this kids science camp I used to go with lulu and pam when we were p5 p6 kids. Its simply wonderfulllll, life really does come full circle.

Also, took up the florist job. Yay I get to wrap up flowers into pretty bundles and (very indirectly) make someone happy. (: Okay I think im mad. Anyhoo, while I surprised lunny the other day by turning up with the lemon meringue in hand after lugging it all around and doing a 100metre mad dash for the damn bus with the fragile pastry piece in tow, she in turn surprised me with this little gerbera!

Hi ho,

Today was such a nice and self sufficient day, save for one little blemish. But ignore the blemish I shall (like a small harmless but irritating pimple) and contented I will be. Anyhoos I didnt make plans for today and I am surprised at my ability to find things to do out of nothing. I baked a Lemon Meringue Pie! Can you already see how pleased I am. I LOVE lemoney stuffs!

So off I cycled to pick up some baking necessities and squashed them into my trusty crumpler before heading back. I must have looked rather chui - It was a terrifyingly hot humid day, and I believe there were these two punks sitting on a lorry zooming past me as I was trying my best to trudge up the stupid hill on my bike.

Before it got sent into the oven, after toiling in the sweaty, mosquito-ey (its rainy season now) kitchen for 2-3 hours --



Final Product . If nobody eats it, im gonna gobble it up all by my hungry self!!



my fantabulous maid, who helped a great deal. whever i wasnt sure of something/couldnt locate a particular baking equipment i'd go auntieeeeeeeeeeeee....



So right now its safely stowed away in the refridgerator to be ready chilled for brekkie tmw!

Watch please if you need some cheering up! Highly recommended for people who had had a bad day. (:

Right now I wish I could teleport to London, just for a bit. The photosharing mechanism on fb is a bad bad baddd thing, primarily because it perpetuates the Life is Greener On The Other End thing. Ah, it must be the flurry of photos the london peeps have put up on the other end thats making me feel funny again. What more its autumn now, and its SO pretty with the falling maple leaves and the still-not-too-bad-relatively-sunny weather. I still think that London presents a lot more photo taking opportunities than Singapore. Although of course, STB spokesperson *ginang may vehemently disagree, haha! The other day I was trying hard to think of things to take photos of, to finish up the two remaining photos of my holga film but I realised I should have really just finished it over there...

So, its taking a little more effort of processing on the brain to reason out why I am here. Why I am here finding things to do whilst most of my peers are having it the exact opposite. I knew on the plane back then, that the moment I stepped off the plane would be the start of the real journey already. This very trecherous and foreseeably rocky journey that would need constant reminders from self or various other people why i am doing what i am doing.

Yet, after all these fleeting thoughts I reason with myself and at the end of it all, manage to come to a very heartening conclusion that I am pretty secure with my current position right now. I know what im doing, im not lost, and in fact, I have an aim and a dream! And like I said before, I am ultimately, and finally still at peace. For now, that is. If i ever do get disillusioned somewhere down the road, perhaps a few mths later or even years or decades later, please do remind me why I set out to do all of these in the very first place. Okay? (:

( Though I miss London, )</div>

 I am happy to be back still! (:

I feel gross now mostly because I've been sleeping at god forsaken hours and then waking up at equally god forsaken hours, and then start the day when half the day's already gone, and feeling horrible as a result of that.

Seeeeeeee, thats why I hate being free, I want to be busy! I want to be like super duper busy, rushing from one place to another. Last wk was perfect, after I got over my jetlag the first two days, I immediately started work and like had to wake up IN THE MORNING and I actually felt accomplished and tired after getting back late in the night. (: So, here I am trying to fill up my days, while the kids have exams this wk, and hopefully aunty faith will hurry and call me back to go for work after the kids return!!!! I dont mind the travelling to god forsaken tanah merah!

I shall attempt to wake up in the mornings from now on. It'll do good to my mental state I guess. So off I am now to go to the polyclinic to have my blood sucked by bloodsuckers. ): And then to cell.

I hope that the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you want to go,
And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.

And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,

But more than anything, more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
And you always give more than you take.

Awesome song, courtesy of gina ng. (: so empowering! I miss London friends. <3  I am always reminiscing about the things of the past I should stop looking at the past so wistfully.

Good week it shall be... (: By God's grace.

I thank God for:

# The past year in London.
Learnt and grew tremendously and its an experience I dont regret. Note to self to do a proper reflection of this. Yink also suggested penning my hopes for med at this instance, when im still fresh eyed and full of dreams. In future when the going gets tough, I can look back at what I've written and remind myself on the things I once set out to achieve.

#A good first day at work today. (: Cute kids + great boss. I hope things will get better.

Thank You. (:

My phone is in the ICU right now, somewhere along the ulu land of Telok Blangah Road.

Phones have something against me, the last time my equipment got into contact with something liquid was equally memorable and more embarrassing - recall: phone fell into toilet bowl in jc. Thats way worse okay, at least my phone fell into MEESUA SOUP this time, not some gross bodily fluid.

So anyway when the phone dropped into my lunch today, I was surprised to find it not working anymore! Afterall, it was only, like 6cm worth of soup? My phone wasnt even fully submerged! LG phones are crappy.. if it was a Nokia, I bet it would have survived. Nokia phones are hardy phones.

So anyway I cancelled some plans and decided to rush the phone for some emergency resuscitation. LG mobile service centre, however, chooses to be at some god forsaken place so I actually trekked a good half an hour before arriving at the centre perspiring from top to toe.

And, I found my o2 sim card that I apparently lost over summer! Not like it will be of any use right now, actually. Its just pretty annoying to not be able to find things when you need them badly AND THEN find things hidden safely somewhere only AFTER you dont need it anymore.

Thats a shiway for youu gahhh

Heavy Heart

I asked God for strength that I might achieve. I was made weak that I might learn humbly to obey.
I asked for health that I might do greater things. I was given infirmity that I might do better things.
I asked for riches that I might be happy. I was given poverty that I might be wise.
I asked for power that I might have the praise of men. I was given weakness that I might feel the need of God.
I asked for all things that I might enjoy life. I was given life that I might enjoy all things.

I got nothing that I asked for, but everything I hoped for.

I feel horrible. not like sad upset horrible, but like horrible person kind of horrible. gah.

But oh hoho today was totally UN-horrible at least (: Weather was PURRRRRFECT, blue cloudless skies, bright sun rays. And scones with jam and clotted cream with a pot of tea at Cambridge. ME LIKES.

Sometimes I *really* cant stand my mum for being such a kanchiong spider, what with her nagging and uptightness about every single thing.

But just yesterday, it randomly dawned upon me while talking to a friend, that I do have very very very much to thank my mum for. And i do thank God that my mum is being Very Cool and un-uptight about the very thing that she has all the right in the world to be kanchiong about.

I dont think I can ever thank my mum enough.

So this is the morning of my last flight to London (ever?). Feels strangely familiar, going about all the packing, fretting of overweight baggage.. soon i'll be back within falling leaves and cool weather (if its a gd day, stormy if its bad). Soon my eczema wont be flaring up much again due to the heat and humidity, and then soon, i'll be saying bye to my londony friendssssss ):

Off to do last min packing

I feel like I need to stop being online so much. on msn, or facebook. its diverting my attention from doing other more important and intellectually meaningful things, like qt, reading a good book, guitar, or lying around in bed undisturbed. if i cant do stuff without feeling this compulsive need to check my lappie for orangey blinking msn windows, it means im addicted, right?